Until this year my job has offered opportunities for travel on occasion, and some of them have been required, though not all of them. I’d gotten opportunities to visit conferences and places I might not have otherwise, and sometimes even to take along my family.
This year has been different.
None of my travel has been optional, and it has been exceedingly great. As of this post, I’ve visited 28 states and logged over 38,000 miles this year. (Side note: this is the reason my blog posts have been so sporadic all year)
I’m tired. I’m tired of coming home and tired of not getting to stay.
For my birthday Raquel gave me a copy of Andrew Peterson’s album, Clear to Venus. I loved it instantly and it became my favorite AP album just as quickly. The title track, Venus, is about his struggles as he traveled around from concert concert and the wear and tear on his family.
The song makes me cry.
I am convinced that what I am traveling for is a worthwhile–in fact I am convinced that there is no one else who can do what I’m doing. Which means that just because I’m tired I can’t just give up–if this is what God has called me to then there is no where else I can be.
…It’s one more night at the Hampton Inn
It’s breakfast on the house again
Well, it isn’t home, but it’ll do just fine
Still, it isn’t home
We’ve got planes to catch, bills to pay
We won’t make it home today
We’ve got shows from Boston clear to Venus
But if America is listening, as long as I’ve got songs to sing
We can always make a home right here between us
(whole song lyrics)
But that doesn’t make leaving home and spending “one more night at the Hampton Inn” any easier. It’s been hard on me, and hard on my family, and every time I come home I long for Home.
38,000 miles is a lot, and I’m not done this year yet. By the end of the year I’ll be well over 40,000 miles. The song was especially meaningful because my year of travel started with a trip to Boston, and I feel like I’ve traveled clear to Venus. But thankfully, that’s not true. Venus is closest to earth at 40 MILLION miles. I haven’t traveled a tenth of a percent of the way to Venus.
It just feels that way.
I miss my wife and my family when I travel, and it’s hard to balance my callings at times. Here’s a link to Andrew Peterson singing Venus. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. And if it makes you cry, think of me and say a prayer for my family while I’m “singing my songs” to America.