Problems are for Solving

Galatians 6:9:
“And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.”

Tonight I am weary of doing good. Some would probably tell me I’ve not yet begun to do good, and they’d probably be right.

But tonight I am weary. It appears to me that I am going to give up before I reap.

And for that I feel guilty. It’s not God’s fault I’m weary. He gives grace and perseverance to those who ask in faith.

“Let us not grow weary of doing good…”

Tonight I am weary.

It was a hard day today and the reason it was hard is because of my own heart. I don’t trust God enough. I forget that the dragons are His to fight and not mine.

And so tonight I am weary.

I am losing heart.

I don’t want to do good anymore to anyone. I’m tired of feeling like it doesn’t do any good and that it just doesn’t help. Today there seemed to be ample evidence that the good I thought I’d done hasn’t done anything.

Maybe I’m blind. It wouldn’t be the first time that God was doing things and I couldn’t see them.

Tonight I am weary.

Father, forgive me for being weary of doing good. It is all my fault. I know that Your promises are true. Or at least I know that I should know that they are true. Help my unbelief. Give me strength. Don’t let me give up.

Tonight I am weary. Weary of doing good. May God be pleased to give me rest and encouragement and grace that I might not give up and lose heart.

I don’t want to be weary.

I know I am weary because I try in my own strength. Forgive me Father, for tonight I am weary.

UPDATE:
After a good night’s sleep life doesn’t look as bad as it did. I am still tired and overwhelmed and lack some strength to do good to others. Today I will take care of my family and next week I will consider the world.

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